Friday, April 10, 2009
OMG Good Friday
I'm f'n bored. seriously bored. unbelievably bored. there is no work to do no one is at work everyone is off of work and i'm stuck here sitting at my desk doing nothing when the only real thing to do is file and who the f wants to file like ever. i got enough papercuts and scratches from filing yesterday. it's annoying i wanna go home this is BULLSHIT.
Friday, April 3, 2009
Don't read if easily disgusted
hahaha i share because i can ...
so i'm having the worst cramps ever, i feel like i have a waterfall between my legs and it's just plain old painful and disgusting and all i want to do i go lay down in the fetal position and cry. i haven't felt like this in soooooooo long i don't even remember the last time.
here is my theory as to why this is happening:
i have been on the pill since i had my daughter she is about to be 3. so you figure 3 years of almost non-existent very light (dark colored) periods right. so my theory is that because of the pill it builds it extra protection against the lining on the walls it kills it or whatever (this is just me i'm no doctor expert so if i'm wrong i'm wrong) this way the sperm doesn't swim up and try and attack my egg because it has all this lining that it doesn't make it there. like super spermicide attack of the killer wall lining haha. anyway so my point is that now that i'm not on the pill the wall is growing and regaining it's strength and in that it's starting to come down how it should normally completely red and heavy pieces of tissue and it's disgusting when you go to the bathroom and no i wasn't pooin or peein but you sit down and you know you feel all heavy and then plop goes the tissue in the toilet hahaha. nasty right. so now that the lining on the walls are comin down properly now his sperm can swim happily to my egg and begin to hibernate into a baby hahaha.
sorry if i grossed you out but i warned you!
so i'm having the worst cramps ever, i feel like i have a waterfall between my legs and it's just plain old painful and disgusting and all i want to do i go lay down in the fetal position and cry. i haven't felt like this in soooooooo long i don't even remember the last time.
here is my theory as to why this is happening:
i have been on the pill since i had my daughter she is about to be 3. so you figure 3 years of almost non-existent very light (dark colored) periods right. so my theory is that because of the pill it builds it extra protection against the lining on the walls it kills it or whatever (this is just me i'm no doctor expert so if i'm wrong i'm wrong) this way the sperm doesn't swim up and try and attack my egg because it has all this lining that it doesn't make it there. like super spermicide attack of the killer wall lining haha. anyway so my point is that now that i'm not on the pill the wall is growing and regaining it's strength and in that it's starting to come down how it should normally completely red and heavy pieces of tissue and it's disgusting when you go to the bathroom and no i wasn't pooin or peein but you sit down and you know you feel all heavy and then plop goes the tissue in the toilet hahaha. nasty right. so now that the lining on the walls are comin down properly now his sperm can swim happily to my egg and begin to hibernate into a baby hahaha.
sorry if i grossed you out but i warned you!
Thursday, April 2, 2009
( . )
i haven't written in here since december, how sad is that. can you believe it's already April. I'm just super emotional and just stressed out today. I got my . that's always a plus. But more than that it's just i feel like i'm being pulled in all types of directions and all i want to do is hide under a rock. if i could find out that would be comfortable.
work - i'm doing work for this chick that is on maternity leave (i am only one person and i dont know her brand that well ppl please give me a fucking break), it's no fun doing the job of two ppl and only get paid for one. and on top of that not getting recognized for it only being told to do more do more do more. fuck i'm only human give me a break please. i'm tired...
home - i almost feel like i'm not really spending time with my daughter so i'm starting to feel guilty about that. my bf is not working right now which is fine but sometimes i wish i didn't have to do it all myself you know. and did i mention i got my . which isn't the best news but hey it's only been a month of trying so you can't expect a miracle right?
I'm just not feeling myself right now, i'm just so damn tired of all the BS that has to do with life and work mainly. i wake up in the morning and i don't want to get out of bed because i know i have to go to work. i get to work and say i dont want to get out of my car, for what. i sit at my desk and say i don't want to do this anymore. there's just something about this place that is so depressing sometimes. why can't i be a trust fund baby lol.
work - i'm doing work for this chick that is on maternity leave (i am only one person and i dont know her brand that well ppl please give me a fucking break), it's no fun doing the job of two ppl and only get paid for one. and on top of that not getting recognized for it only being told to do more do more do more. fuck i'm only human give me a break please. i'm tired...
home - i almost feel like i'm not really spending time with my daughter so i'm starting to feel guilty about that. my bf is not working right now which is fine but sometimes i wish i didn't have to do it all myself you know. and did i mention i got my . which isn't the best news but hey it's only been a month of trying so you can't expect a miracle right?
I'm just not feeling myself right now, i'm just so damn tired of all the BS that has to do with life and work mainly. i wake up in the morning and i don't want to get out of bed because i know i have to go to work. i get to work and say i dont want to get out of my car, for what. i sit at my desk and say i don't want to do this anymore. there's just something about this place that is so depressing sometimes. why can't i be a trust fund baby lol.
Monday, December 8, 2008
DREAM
Omg can someone please tell me why i had this crazy ass dream.
my mother went to babysit for my brother. well my parents came back angry and even my boyfriend was acting all strange. all i could ask was what the hell had happened and my dad was cursing up a storm about how ashamed he was and so on and so forth. then my mom kept saying i just can't believe it i can't believe it. then someone finally tells me that my brother put the baby in daycare already i was like for what she doesn't work she can watch the kid there. and then something along the lines of my brother hit her to see if she was really there. i'm not sure if he hit the mother or the baby. i was just in shock i couldn't believe my brother would do such a thing he has never hit anyone. this is a new side to him i didn't know existed such anger. even my parents who have argued a lot during their time together my father has never ever ever laid a finger on her in that way before. so i dont know where he would learn such a thing, it was just all very very shocking and i had no clue where it came from. then i woke up and i still felt like it was true and i dont know why it was going through my mind in the first place something like that but it was. awkward really.
my mother went to babysit for my brother. well my parents came back angry and even my boyfriend was acting all strange. all i could ask was what the hell had happened and my dad was cursing up a storm about how ashamed he was and so on and so forth. then my mom kept saying i just can't believe it i can't believe it. then someone finally tells me that my brother put the baby in daycare already i was like for what she doesn't work she can watch the kid there. and then something along the lines of my brother hit her to see if she was really there. i'm not sure if he hit the mother or the baby. i was just in shock i couldn't believe my brother would do such a thing he has never hit anyone. this is a new side to him i didn't know existed such anger. even my parents who have argued a lot during their time together my father has never ever ever laid a finger on her in that way before. so i dont know where he would learn such a thing, it was just all very very shocking and i had no clue where it came from. then i woke up and i still felt like it was true and i dont know why it was going through my mind in the first place something like that but it was. awkward really.
Friday, December 5, 2008
Why are you such a ...
BITCH!
Is it because you don't get any from your husband? Is it because no one really likes you? Is it because you're annoying as fuck? Is it because you think you have just the slightest bit of power over us because you're just a tad bit higher than us? Is it because you have low self esteem and just want to put others down to make yourself feel better? Is it because you just are?
Is it because you don't get any from your husband? Is it because no one really likes you? Is it because you're annoying as fuck? Is it because you think you have just the slightest bit of power over us because you're just a tad bit higher than us? Is it because you have low self esteem and just want to put others down to make yourself feel better? Is it because you just are?
Wednesday, November 5, 2008
Irritation
So i went outside with this one girl at work who starts talkin about how my supervisor doesn't like any of our other coworkers (theres 4 of us total), shes like how do u put up with her and i say oh i just try and stay on her good side. she says that she talks bad about everyone. she said she even spoke bad about me once in the bathroom to someone else, i was in awe because i didn't know she had found something bad to say about me considering i have been nothing but nice to her and i'm new so why would she complain, i work quickly and correctly. well sure enough she went to the physical side of things, great. She shouldn't be talking physically she's not that appealing i think she is a lonely person, and all i can say to her is at least my clothes fit me, at least my boyfriend loves me, and at least i have my daughter ... i can't say the same for her. she's not the most likable person that's for sure. And i will not stoop to her level and talk about her behind her back to people here because that's just so highschool. instead i'll just come here and rant ... but i'm done ... she can kiss my ass. Ugh.
Friday, October 31, 2008
It's time
HAPPY HALLOWEEN EVERYONE!
it's been forever and a day since i've written on this blog not that anyone really reads it anyway. So today is halloween, i'll be taking the little one out trick or treating that should be fun. she's a little witch i'll be sure to take pictures of her of course. i'm wishin they would let us out of work early today but i highly doubt it. yesterday was a really hard day at work, just too much to do with everyone mia off doing something else i get stuck doing their work, lucky me. bitches. anyway, i'm ready to go home.
it's been forever and a day since i've written on this blog not that anyone really reads it anyway. So today is halloween, i'll be taking the little one out trick or treating that should be fun. she's a little witch i'll be sure to take pictures of her of course. i'm wishin they would let us out of work early today but i highly doubt it. yesterday was a really hard day at work, just too much to do with everyone mia off doing something else i get stuck doing their work, lucky me. bitches. anyway, i'm ready to go home.
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