Monday, June 8, 2009

4 more days until ...

I go on my VA trip - and five days until i turn 30 which i think i did a list of things i wanted to do before then yeah i doubt i did many if any of those ahhahaha.

Wednesday, June 3, 2009

talking to exes ... and he's just not that into you

Is it cheating if your dating someone, and you text/IM other men?

Is it wrong to talk to exes?

What am I doing - at one point the guilt felt just too much for me this weekend LOL. we had a really great weekend, i have a really great guy so why do i feel the need to go out and look for others? i have never cheated on my current bf (i've cheated on ever bf i've ever had except the very short relationships cause duh they were too short). We've been together almost four years now the only different thing about this relationship in regards to the other ones is that we have a child and we live together. And don't get me wrong, i'm totally happy with him. Sure there was a few weeks there where things were really tough with me emotionally and i was just drained completely that's when i was really contemplating wandering. i'm just not used to the same person for so long, sometimes you just want something different you know what i mean.

I know i probably wouldn't do anything with anyone but still sometimes you just wonder.

Last night I saw "he's just not that into you". And I totally get the review with women start from when they are little to believe if a man treats you bad then he likes you etc etc and ends with the same false hope thinking that you are the exception to the rule. But you know what WHO CARES, the movie was great. I loved everyone's story lines. They had a little bit of everyone or someone you know in the story. the girl who finds guys online, the married couple, the couple that have been together forever but are not married, the couple who act like one but aren't one because the girl doesn't want to settle, and of course my fav the girl who wants the fantasy and goes about it in a psycho way and the boy who uses women and in the end realizes that he loves the psycho. I LOVED THIS MOVIE!!!!!!! i don't care about reality stuff when i see a movie i see it as a movie and nothing more but i literally watched it two times yesterday and was sad to see it go in the mail this morning. i really want that movie in my collection i could watch justin long and ben affleck all day and night long. Seriously. i want the movie and i want the book and i told my bf that last night. my bday is next saturday let's see if he comes through LOL. probably not hahaha.