SO IT'S SATURDAY AND LABOR DAY WEEKEND RIGHT AND WHAT AM I DOING TRYING TO FINISH SOME WORK THAT IS DUE ON MONDAY WHILE AT THE SAME TIME WATCHING MY LOVEY TERRIBLE TWO YEAR OLD. OH WHAT IS HER FATHER DOING YOU ASK ... PLAYING WITH HIS FUCKING CAR!!!!!!!! FUCKING SELFISH MOTHER FUCKER. HE EVEN WENT OUT LAST NIGHT AND GOT HOME AT 430 IN THE MORNING .. LIFE IS NOT FAIR. I WISH I HAD A DICK THEN MAYBE IF I HAD A DICK I COULD BE ONE SELFISH MOTHERFUCKER WHO DOESN'T CARE ABOUT ANYTHING AND JUST DOES WHAT HE WANTS TO DO. CAUSE THAT IS WHAT HAVING A DICK GIVES YOU. THE CONFIDENCE TO BE A SELFISH PRICK. LITERALLY.

I'M JUST REALLY ANGRY RIGHT NOW .... I'M TRYING TO WORK TO BRING EXTRA MONEY IN AND HE'S FUCKIN PLAYING WITH HIS CAR. BUT GOD FORBID THERE IS SOMETHING WRONG WITH MY CAR HE WONT EVEN TAKE IT TO THE DEALER FOR ME. UGHHHH I NEED A PERMANENT VACATION FROM MY LIFE. PERMANENT. I CAN'T TAKE IT NO MORE I'M GOING TO STAB SOMEONE I SWEAR. i'M NOT TOO FAR FROM TAKING CLOTHES STICKING IT IN A GARBAGE BAG AND THROWING THEM OUTSIDE. LIFE IS NOT FAIR. AND IT'S EVEN LESS FAIR WHEN YOUR A MOTHER BECAUSE YOU NO LONGER HAVE A LIFE, IDENTITY OR TIME ALONE. NEVER

I heart Technology

You know it just hit me what a wonderful thing technology is. When you can sit here and pour your brain out into the world and everyone and anyone can read it, whenever they want and they can comment on it. It's just a beautiful thing the way we can communicate nowadays. I mean just think back in the day before telephone, having to get on a horse and send a note sealed in wax. That stuff just doesn't happen anymore, well at least not here it doesn't. How cool would it be to receive a letter that is hand written, on hand made paper that is sealed in wax holding the family's crest on it hahaha. That would be completely weird but totally cool. Family crests, do people actually still have those (other than tho socialites of the world)

Randomness, every time I type something my mind goes off on a complete tangent. For example socialite made me think of Gossip Girl, which then made me think of uniforms, which then made me think of mailman, which then bought me back to my original talk about how we communicate.

Any who, I have no clue what the hell I'm blabbing about I just know that I'm blabbing and you're loving it cause you're reading it and that is how I completed my task for the day! I have no clue .... period.

i wish

i wish ...

i had someone to come and organize for me cause i suck at it
i had a bigger room that would hold all my stuff
i had more money so i could get the bigger room and more shelving
i had more time to myself
i could have everything i wanted
i was rich

can you tell i'm trying to clean and disastrously unsuceeding at it. i need my own place my room is a disaster and i can't stand it. i try and clean but i just can't do it all by myself and i know that most of the mess is mine because i have too much stuff. its just hard sometimes and right now i wish i could go shopping for some retail therapy but i have no money whatsoever so that's def not going to happen.

today

is slow. ... .... .... very very very very very slow.

This weekend is my aunt's surprise bday party. My brother is going to show up with my cousin and their new baby ... it's a family event. Should be entertaining to say the least. Watch everyone act like nothing has changed, as if nothing is out of the ordinary. But then once they leave the premises the talk will begin. And the chatter about how dare they show their faces blah blah blah blah.... typical. I'm so over it on so many levels. Like whatever. I'm done with it.

I've been over sleeping a lot in the morning this week. Almost every day. Sad I know but I'm tried.

We leave for Mexico in two weeks and I can't wait. I hope I have a blast! I just found out that Kirk has a lot of days I'm contemplating taking off on Sept 29th cause we have the 30th and the 1st off .. that's five days right there including the weekend that I can take a trip somewhere. Hm where should we go. Obviously it has to be somewhere we can drive to cause plane tickets are just too much right now especially since Isabella needs to pay full price.

Maybe I'll go explore Canada ... anyone?