Horrible

today i feel horrible, ugly, tired and just want to crawl under a rock and disappear. I went pumpkin picking yesterday. took a picture of myself and when i was downloading them onto my computer i saw the picture i took of myself and i looked horrible, i looked tired i looked just bad bad bad. now im feeling blah

it's been forever

right now I'm irritated and extremely bored i have absolutely nothing to do and the only thing i really want to do is go home and go to sleep. i hate being so tired all the time it's really not fun especially when you have stuff to do at home.

blugh

I'm literally falling asleep at work and the only thing i wish i had was a bed next to me, i'm so freaking tired and bored i have absolutely nothing to do at all. it's quite sad really. why are we so slow? i have no clue i just don't want to hear that it's cause of the economy anymore fuck the economy. i just dont want to lose my job cause i need it especially with a bun in the oven. anywho i'm ready to go home but i still have half an hour i've been playing games online all day practically. sad i tell ya just plain old sad.

sad

Why am I attracted to the dumbest men ever, the incosiderate, the broke, the untalented, the sometimes not worthy. I don't really know, all I know is that he just doesn't thinks ometimes and sometimes makes me regret ever meeting him. i wonder how my life would be if that never happened. maybe i'd be happier than i am right now.

i want someone to want this of me

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sometimes

do you wish you were with someone else like you see someone on the street that is super hot or something and just wish you could be with them. seriously sometimes i just want to be with someone else i dont know why i get these feelings i just do. it's not that i don't love the person i'm with cause i do, really i do, but sometimes i just want a little bit more. did i make the right choice? i'm sure i did and even if i didn't he is good to me and that's where it really matters, right.

Sleep

Something i dont' get much of - and let me tell you there are days that i wonder how i make it home ... right now it's 2:34 and i'm falling asleep at my desk ... literally