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i haven't written in here since december, how sad is that. can you believe it's already April. I'm just super emotional and just stressed out today. I got my . that's always a plus. But more than that it's just i feel like i'm being pulled in all types of directions and all i want to do is hide under a rock. if i could find out that would be comfortable.

work - i'm doing work for this chick that is on maternity leave (i am only one person and i dont know her brand that well ppl please give me a fucking break), it's no fun doing the job of two ppl and only get paid for one. and on top of that not getting recognized for it only being told to do more do more do more. fuck i'm only human give me a break please. i'm tired...

home - i almost feel like i'm not really spending time with my daughter so i'm starting to feel guilty about that. my bf is not working right now which is fine but sometimes i wish i didn't have to do it all myself you know. and did i mention i got my . which isn't the best news but hey it's only been a month of trying so you can't expect a miracle right?

I'm just not feeling myself right now, i'm just so damn tired of all the BS that has to do with life and work mainly. i wake up in the morning and i don't want to get out of bed because i know i have to go to work. i get to work and say i dont want to get out of my car, for what. i sit at my desk and say i don't want to do this anymore. there's just something about this place that is so depressing sometimes. why can't i be a trust fund baby lol.