work

if it was fun then they wouldn't call it work
i fuckin hate my job
i hate every single person here at times (except maybe two people)
they are so fucking fake fake fake
i fuckin hate my job
you piss me off on a daily basis
soon im not going to answer ur calls anymore
i want you to be assigned to someone else
you annoy and irritate me
i fuckin hate my job!!!

Surprise ... or not

So my family sucks at surprises they just dont know it. my birthday is coming up and it's the big 3-0. well i'm pretty sure they are planning a party which is funny because that's what i did for my mom and now she's doing it to me. except i was better at it because she had no idea literally until we pulled up to the house. me i can hear them whispering and it's not good, my mom is a really loud person so she's bad at keeping secrets i hear her on the phone with her friend she's like hold on let me walk back here so cathy can't hear about the party WTF i just heard you say that .. LOL so i get up from my chair and close the door to my room so i literally do not hear anything else because if it's a surprise then shit i want it to be a real surprise you know. so i'm trying really really hard to ignore everyone when the issue comes up because i know they want it to be a surprise lol.

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I think I'm depressed.

Dream - MF

I haven't dreamed about you in years ... literally. So I was pleasantly surprised to see you in my dreams again being a love interest and you will definitely always be the one that got away but I'm sure that happened for a reason.

I was in this house which I'm assuming was mine or which I was staying at and I went into this room looking for someone and there you were laying on the bed watching TV. So I sit on the bed and we just talked and flirted really. Touched hands that kinda thing then something happened and I had to leave to see what it was. I ran out and it almost seemed like the world was ending or something I have no clue but I went back and you were in the living room watching TV. Sitting on the couch, I went over to you and then my alarm woke me up.

So there was nothing sexually involved per say but there were thoughts of sexuality. This is a guy that if I were about to get married and had a chance for that one last fling, he would be it. Well it's between him and someone else lol. Either way it's just someone I've wanted since I was like 12. Why do people pop in to your mind at the weirdest times. I wasn't or haven't even thought about him in forever but he shows up in my dream like a reminder of something that I could have had but didn't because I was too afraid to give into it. Maybe that's why I had that dream, who knows I'm no dream expert that's for sure. But it was nice to see him there and now he's all I'm thinking about this morning, duh. Hugs and Kisses to you wherever you are even though i know you are probably only 30 mins away from me right at this moment. Maybe you're sleeping in bed (I'm sure not alone since you are never alone).