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I hate them ... you're so happy that you got it but then when you get it you're like ughh i have it and i feel crappy i just want to lay in bed all day and do nothing. Or stay in the shower and be clean clean clean LOL. They always say be careful what you wish for that when you get it you might not want it. Not that I was worried that I wasn't going to get it but I'm just generalizing it you know.

Sleep is a Luxury

That I don't have ... Isabella has been sleeping in my bed for two days now. She's sick so she is constantly waking up throughout the whole night and when she wakes up she's crying. So I am needless to say exhausted. I feel like i haven't slept in days and right now I'm at work practically falling asleep. Seriously it's very very hard for me to keep my opens long enough to do anything and on top of that I have NOTHING to do at work, literally NOTHING! So I'm trying to find things online to do and it's even hard to do that because really what's so exciting out there nothing really. I need my bed and some time to myself.

Men = Idiots!

So I was listening to my favorite radio station this morning, Z100. Someone had sent an email in that went along the lines of the following:

My friend is a receptionist and gets a lot of weird calls. She was telling me about this one call that was a guy who asked if she could tell his wife that he has been working overtime at her company. But before he even asks the receptionist to lie for him he tells her the situation. He's been cheating on his wife for the past 6 weeks and has told her that he has been working overtime there (even though he doesn't work there at all) he asked the receptionist that his wife will probably call and if she could please tell his wife that he is in a meeting and will call him back when it's over. The receptionist being the nice person that she is laughed and said sure ok. Not believing him obviously. But sure enough two hours later his wife calls. So the receptionist thinking this guy shouldn't be getting away with this tells the guys wife. Well actually he hasn't been working over time he has been cheating on your for the past six weeks. He didn't block his number so she gave his wife the number that he called from. Sure enough the wife says thank you and calls her husband. The wife calls back later that day to tell the receptionist thank you for telling me, he admitted that he had been cheating on me for the past 6 weeks ... with my mother!

So the radio station asked what do you think the receptionist should have done? Would you have told the wife the truth or lied for the husband? Now if you lie to the wife then you are just continuing the mans lies but she wouldn't be hurt.

Me personally I would have told the wife everything just like the receptionist cause us women need to stick together. He must have been pretty fucking desperate to call some random place and lie that he's worked there and then ask a perfect stranger to lie for him as well. As if! I know i wouldn't put up with no man's shit and if one of my friends knew something (and this wasn't even a friend) then I would definitely tell her even if she didn't believe me at least I told her so she can't say that I didn't warn her. Oh and the kicker of the story that he was sleeping with her mother, I mean seriously how fucked up can you be. That is definitely some freaking Jerry Springer shit right there. Drama ... LOVE IT!

Tired

I hate when you wait and you hope and your like Oh yeah it's so gonna happen, and then it doesn't. That just really really sux but you move on you keep trying and cross your fingers that one day you just might be good enough. Whatever I like my stuff and that's all that really matters since I'm the one who will be looking at it always not you or you or even you. But I move on ...

So it's 8:08 and I'm ready to go home ... I took Friday off though so I could relax a little and maybe spend some time with the bf since I've been ignoring him for a good two weeks cause he keeps pissing me off going to his friends house to help them fix up. And here's my problem with this... 1. anytime we have something in the house they NEVER come, 2. he's supposed to be paying him but he hasn't gotten a dime yet, 3. there are days where he drives to the guys place and he's sleeping or not ready to do anything that day (it's a fucking hour away and gas is high). 4. he spends no time with me or my daughter like at all. I'm just mad and disappointed all around I almost feel like just saying fuck it i don't give three fucks anymore i don't care i don't care i don't care just leave me the hell alone! You know what I'm just over it and tired.

I'm just tired.

Randomness

I haven't blogged on here for a while ... no drama to talk about you know. How boring is that. My brother has Jury duty this week, I almost wish I had jury duty because I love watching those crime shows on TV. It's def something different and interesting to experience. I got called once but couldn't go because it was during an exam week in school. I miss school sometimes (not the classes).

I ran into my DTM brother twice, whatever. It's bound to happen I just hope I don't see "it" anywhere or I don't know what I would do seriously. Is it bad that I actually thought of slashing tires just cause I had the opportunity to screw with him. Then I felt all bad and guilty. I didn't do anything wrong but I felt bad like he's my brother he can't be DTM you know. I actually felt sorry for him for only having THEM in his life and anything THEM related. He ran into my mom and she asked if he was happy he said he was comfortable. My mom is riding on that ray of hope that he didn't say happy only comfortable, she's like well he didn't say he's happy. Like miraculously he's going to change his mind and come back to her kind of thing. I didn't say anything I just let her ride that ray of sunshine she has in her head. He said he was going to stop by to say hi to my dad (my mom told him to) on Easter. When cleaning up the food she was like oh let me save some for your brother in case he comes so he can take some home. He didn't show up. I felt bad for her. (Writing that it almost made me tear up so I'm changing the subject).

So back to my brother being on Jury duty because of that the schedule to watch Isabella is all whacked out. Now Kirk is going in at 330 (WTF you mean to tell me he could have kept that fucking schedule instead of working from 11-8). I think he's full of shit. I think he changed the schedule to satisfy himself with no consideration on who's watching our child and when. I swear I really and honestly think he's really selfish sometimes. Men just don't think of anyone but themselves first ... who agrees with me? It's horrible how selfish he is. I mean yeah I am sometimes too who isn't but he goes a little over board with it sometimes and it's just irritating me. Men! Can't live with them, can't live without them!

babies

so my old coworker just called me and she had forever had issues with gettin pregnant. you know she did the whole taking shots, going here and there to try and get pregnant so she finally did and had a beautiful little girl, apparently she tells me she just popped another kid out in February and is contemplating working on her third because she's not getting any younger (37). I'm all like wow I didn't even know you were pregnant again lol. Well sure enough i get the dreaded question. when are you having another. i feel like i'm being forced to have another kid. it wasn't hard the first time at all nothing was hard, not the pregnancy not the labor not the waking up (cause who needs sleep), so why shouldn't i go ahead and try for another one. i dont know if im ready cause i just don't know. i would feel like im doing it just to get it over with and to satisfy everyone else. but babies cost money ... money i dont have so unless your going to pay for my child please just leave me the hell alone i'll have another one when im ready.

Transportation Manager - Rant

YOU SHORT NO NECK FAGGOT ASS MOTHER FUCKER HOW DARE YOU YELL AT ME FOR DOING MY FUCKING JOB! IS IT MY FUCKING FAULT YOUR SHORT MONSTER LOOKING LIKE BITCH OF A ADMIN IS OUT TODADY ... NO!!! IS IT MY FAULT YOUR LEPRECHAUN MOFO OF A SUPERVISOR IS ON VACATION THIS WEEK ... NO!!!! SO DON'T FUCKING YELL AT ME CAUSE FOR ONCE SINCE YOU'VE FUCKING BEEN HERE YOU ACTUALLY HAVE TO DO SOME WORK, YOU ACTUALLY HAVE TO TAKE PHONE CALLS, YOU ACTUALLY HAVE TO DO PAPERWORK AND NOT JUST TELL YOUR MINIONS WHAT YOU HAVE TO DO. WHY DON'T YOU GET OFF YOUR FUCKING HIGH HORSE STOP STRESSING AND TAKING SHIT OUT ON ME AS IF YOU MEAN ANYTHING TO ME YOU FUCKING SHRIMP. FIRST OF ALL NO ONE EVEN FUCKING TOLD ME YOUR SNAGLE TOOTH ADMIN WASN'T EVEN HERE TODAY I HAD TO FUCKING OVER HEAR THAT SHIT CAUSE NO ONE TELLS ME SHIT HERE, SO WHY DON'T YOU TAKE YOUR NO NECK STOCKY NASTINESS TO THE GYM TO WORK OUT YOUR FRUSTRATION IN THE SHOWERS WITH YOUR BOYFRIEND, CAUSE YOUR SO OBVIOUSLY A FLAME (I BET IF HE COULD HE WOULD DATE THE MOFO AND THEY WOULD LOVE IT). GO PUT ON YOUR LEGWARMERS (LOL BRIAN), YOUR FUCKING LITTLE TU TU AND GO DANCE AND PRANCE AROUND YOUR OFFICE DOING NOTHING BECAUSE THAT'S WHAT YOUR USED TO BECAUSE EVERYONE DOES EVERYTHING FOR YOU. YOU KNOW I REALLY FUCKING HATE MANAGERS THEY ARE OVERPAID PEOPLE WHO DO NOTHING AND TAKE ALL THE RECOGNITION FOR ALL WORK THAT COMES OUT OF THEIR DEPARTMENT IT'S A BUNCH OF BULLSHIT AND I BAN HIM FROM MY SIGHT OF VIEW. FUCKING PRICK!