No internet!!! That's blasphemy!!

Don’t you hate when the internet is not working at work, and you have no work to do and there is nothing on you’re computer that you can really interact with cause all the good stuff is online. That just seriously sucks so here I am on Word writing my blog that I will post later if the internet starts working again. Our email works, our company website works but our internet does not. Bummer. So what shall I talk about today to pass the time? Good question because I have no idea.

Tonight is Lost and I can’t wait, FINALLY its back! Last time we left off was Through the Looking Glass. Charlie was killed; Desmond was still in the tank so let’s see if he survived which I’m sure he did I think I saw him in the previews. The survivors contacted Naomi’s boat which it looks like are not people who are there to save them. Should be interesting why they want “the others” so bad. I wish I could watch a couple of the previous episodes right now but unfortunately the internet is still down... 2 hrs later and still counting. Last night after Ghost Hunters was a show called UFO Hunters (I guess it’s a play off of Ghost Hunters with the same format but they are looking for UFO’s and to disprove them). Well that episode (not sure if it’s a new show but I think it might be) was based in NJ. I thought it was funny to see people from NJ thinking they saw a UFO like anything interesting ever really happens in NJ lol. This one dude I swear to you he thinks he was abducted, I was like ok wacko, next! Lol. We have air force bases in NJ that’s prob what it was and they won’t tell you because I’m sure it’s top secret just like everything else the government does. But still it was interesting to listen to. American Idol was alright it wasn’t all that last night. It’s getting so boring they really need to change it up or just cancel it all together. The majority of the people who actually try out for the show shouldn’t be singing at all. They are sooo weird and swear they are the shiznit when they aren’t. I thought Project Runway was new, but it wasn’t because I had already seen that episode, isn’t it on new episodes on Wednesday? New seasons of a couple of my fav reality shows are coming back soon. Big Brother 9, Survivor and America’s Next Top Model.

I wish I had a cubby. But instead I just have an open desk with another open desk in front of me. At least my back is to the wall so no one can go behind me and actually see that I pretty much almost never do any work because I never have anything to do.

Fuckin A!! I wish I had internet I’m going bananas over here. It’s already been three hours of me pretending to do work which let me tell you without internet it’s pretty fuckin hard, obviously I’m cursing so I’m getting more and more irritated by the minute. Everything I think of doing I need the internet for. OMG how did we ever live without this? Seriously, I can’t imagine not being in the information age where you can find the answer to almost anything on the internet. It’s an addiction that everyone has, well almost everyone. Those that wish not to conform are on their own. I don’t know if I could have lived back in the day, without computers, phones, television, or anything significant in technology. Like toilets, seriously I know some people still don’t use toilets in other countries but I couldn’t imagine it. I’ve never been camping before someone says something about that. I am spoiled with our day and age, and don’t worry I’m sure our kids will be even more spoiled because when I was in school we didn’t all have computers of our own, we had to pay for the bus, everyone didn’t have a cell phone. I didn’t get one till I was I think a sophomore or freshman in college. And even then I had to sneak buy one and then tell my dad, he made me return it and got me a better one. LOL. Every generation makes their mark, I don’t know what ours is but I couldn’t live without the things we have grown accustomed to, like the internet. Now someone go and fix it …. I’m really bored.

1.5 more hours and I go to lunch, I at least hope by the time I get back that it will be fixed otherwise holy hell what have they been doing all damn long other than trying to fix this issue. This is a pretty big one because people could lose their orders if they don’t have it written down somewhere. I seriously feel like taking a nap. Just closing my eyes and starting to snore but again I don’t have an office or a cubby. Sometimes I wonder fi that’s what they do when they close their office door if they take a nap in there especially when they have couches in there. I could totally see some of the managers doing that but of course they would never admit it since it’s against company rules.

Ok I might have just been caught with my eyes closed … but who cares, I know I don’t!

IT’S BACK!!!!!!!!!

2012?

Ponder this .... December 2012. Do you know what I'm talking about? Any clue? Supposedly the end of civilization as we know it. That is according to the many prophecies out there. I don't if I talked about this before on my blog or not, but I am now cause that's what popped into my mind.

For those of you who are not familiar with the significance of 2012, here’s a
short explanation: The basis of this event lies in the Mayan calendar, in which
time, as we understand it, comes to an end and a major shift occurs in human
consciousness. Will this be the end of the world? Or, is it the beginning of a
new world? Some believe that the shift will reveal the 4th dimension (time) or
maybe the 5th dimension (unity with the unseen Spirit World/Heaven).

Here are a few things:
Accordingly, several eclectic authors claim that a major, world-changing event will take place in 2012:

• The ancient and many modern Maya groups believe that the universe has been renewed four previous times. The first attempt at human life produced animals instead; the second produced a people made of clay who would eventually become certain insects (such as ants and bees); the third attempt produced monkeys; and the fourth attempt produced us: "true humans." Each prior attempt at the human creation was destroyed by a different catastrophe which ended the universe. These stories vary by Maya group: the animals were nearly destroyed by a flood, the people of clay were nearly destroyed by a flood and then a global firestorm, the monkey-people were attacked by their own belongings and their animals.
  The astronomically-based Mayan calendar will be completing its first great cycle of approximately 5,200 years on the 21 December 2012. Although there is no substantial evidence that the ancient Maya considered the date significant, many people have postulated that this is the "end of the Universe" from the Mayan perspective, and others believe that the Mayans meant this to symbolize the "coming of a great change."
• The book The Orion Prophecy claims that the Earth's magnetic field will reverse.
• NASA predicts that the Sun will also reverse its own magnetic poles during 2012 as result of reaching the end of the current 11-year sunspot cycle
• Charles Manson will be eligible for a parole hearing again. (If that's not the end I don't know what is HAHA)

There's tons more out there. Reminds me a lot of Y2K when NOTHING happened. Well nothing that impacted me anyway lol. But that was something man made dealing with computers so it was fixable. But this that they are talking about is not man made. We can't control the magnetic field, we can't control the winter solstice, we can control the fact that we are going to be lining up with the black hole or whatever it was they said on the History channel. So what are your opinions on it? I think the only thing we can do is sit and wait and see what happens. They say that the earth is going to move, the North pole will no longer be the north pole. Is it going to be like the ice age? People have been saying that we will have another Ice age for ever and a day. And if so how does that effect me? Are we going to be the new North Pole?

Woeful Wednesday

It's gloomy out, it's raining on and off, it's semi dark. I love the smell just after it rains, it's so fresh and so clean(~outkast). That's what happened when I walked out the house this morning to go to work. It smelled delicious.

My hair is getting out of control. It's relatively long. Long enough to get caught in everything and anything. This morning I was really getting irritated with my hair, I love it long believe me and it took me a while to grow it back but it's buggin me. Everywhere I turn I feel that my hair is in the way. So dare I? Is it time? Should I chop it off? I really don't know. I'm torn.

Sorry for the shitty picture but all I had was my camera phone LOL. If it's straightened it's my longer, but my hair is naturally a curly mess.

Why?

Why for two days have I had no work to do? I mean absolutely nothing, I wish I could go home and still get paid but no instead I have to sit here and pretend to be doing work because in reality I have nothing to do and I'm bored out of my mind!

Why do men feel the need to go to a strip club and get a lap dance? My older brother is taking both my boyfriend and my uncle to the bar, their birthdays are one day apart and he is planning to buy them both a lap dance. I told my brother that Kirk doesn't need to get a lap dance. I said I would throw the laptop on him and make it dance LOL. But it's his birthday so whatever I suppose. I just don't like the idea of him going there and having some person all over him and then him coming home to me wanting to get some while still thinking of that other person. Am I not a normal female for thinking that cause duh isn't that what guys do?

Why can't bills just disappear into thin air? That would be the loveliest thing in the whole world. Someone go win the lottery and give me some money just 50,000 to help with all my bills. Thanks I'll love you forever I promise lol.

Why blog? because remember I have to pretend like I'm working so typing this thing out makes it look like I'm working really hard LOL. I'm such a faker sometimes, faker!

RIP Heath Ledger

Dare I even talk about it? It's a sad sad thing when someone with so much potential goes down the wrong path. I mean I don't know all the details but we get the gist of what probably happened. Of course it can't be confirmed until the autopsy but still. He's my age you know. He had a beautiful 2 yr old daughter. Like I could never even begin to imagine doing anything to jeopardize my time with my daughter (who will also be 2 this year). It's a sad thing when people are so overtaken by emotion they don't know how to handle it other than substance abuse. In my family there is a lot of alcoholism (my whole father's side) but luckily I don't believe any of the kids have fallen trap yet. I know I personally don't think I ever will. I mean there was a time when I would get up and have a beer but hello it was vacation and I was young. Now I know better. It's just things like this that really make you take a good look at yourself and the people around you. Remember even if your in pain and you want to hurt yourself so badly, think about the people you are leaving behind that you will be hurting even more. I've seen almost every single one of Heath Ledger's movies. He was a really likable guy on screen, and I've seen the preview for Batman and WOW he had a promising long future ahead of him. That movie is going to make money. But we'll never know now. Moment of silence for another lost soul.

Cloverfiled

It left me wanting more (not in a bad way) I didn't want it to end. A good sequel would be another person's point of view during the same event. How interesting would that be. It wasn't so bad. I think it had emotion, action, the whole sci-fi aspect. A little bit of everything for everyone. I definitely want to go see 27 Dresses though (I'm such a girl I know but DUH). But my mom was sick and couldn't go with me so hopefully this weekend we can go. (I have no girlfriends after I had Isabella everyone disappeared because none of them had kids or don't still whatever). I'm not bitter. Anywho. What?!?

This year I was just thinking about this after seeing a LO that said "Things I want to do before I turn 31". I will be 29 this year, so soon I'll be moving into my next decade. I have to make a list of things to do before 30. And actually DO THEM. I wish I could do all the travelling I said on my bucketlist but F'n A! The job only gives you so much time off and even then you only have so much money readily available. I am definitely NOT rich in any way. I don't even think I'm middle class (if I was living alone). I totally lost my train of thought because the freakin phone rang. Don't these people know I'm blogging and need to concentrate hard on what I'm thinking about saying to the world who reads my blog. Not that there are many to begin with but still. LOL. Ok enough ranting ... so yeah list for things to do before 30. Any suggestions?

It's Friday Bitches!!!!

I'm so ready for this weekend. It has been one hell of a long week, completely boring so much so that I've been stalking apparently LOL. Today I plan on finishing that project FINALLY! I'm almost done I swear haha, I just blah it you know. So I feel like getting up and shaking my booty. I"m in such a good mood cause duh it's FRIDAY!!!! No work tomorrow (MAYBE I can sleep in although I doubt it, but I will try). I'm going to go see Cloverfield tomorrow, can't wait. I hope it's actually good. Critics have given it a B so far so that can't be TOO bad. We'll see. And then maybe Kirk will take me out to eat or something .. hopefully. That would be nice actually. Ok I totally lost my train of thought so I'm going to have to say bye for now.

To Kristi

I'm not a stalker I swear LOL ... I just have too much time on my hands at work. Do you have any other blogs I should check out? Anyone? LOL

Dreaming about Friday

Everyday has seemed like a Friday at work. But then reality sets in and I know I still have to work the next day and the day after and even the day after. Today luckily there is only one day after. I'm so ready for this week to be over. It's been unbelievably boring and long and just plain old drawn out. I'm ready to go home and we still have an hour and a half.

Oh the sheer pain of so much boredom. I have been working on the same project for two weeks now. I just really don't feel like completing it. Luckily it's not something that is due anytime soon. It's promotions for April, but I have promised myself that tomorrow I will actually work on them and complete them. Tomorrow. Not today because I don't feel like doing anything but playing on the Internet.

Just you know

Randomness ... Right now I pretty much live vicariously through other people. My life is pretty blah right now you know very routine like. My daily schedule goes like this:

7: wake up
730: go to work
8: start work
100: go to lunch (go home for 20 mins if that)
200: back to work
5: back home
530 get home:
make sure Isabella eats
play with her or let her run around the house for a while
run errands if i need to go to the market or the store for something
put Isabella to sleep
Scrap if I have time or just lay down and watch TV
Sometimes I'll play games on my laptop
1230: Kirk gets home
.....
1-2ish go to sleep

then the next day it starts all over again. Boring right LOL. So I will scroll through blogs and remember days when I would be drunk and not doing homework in college (you know who you are blogger lol), the days of Internet dating (I actually met my bf through yahoo go figure), the days when you could go out with multiple men the same day and just have a blast or even those days when you would have the WLE (LOL Kristi). They seem like forever and a day ago but it really wasn't, just a couple of years. How time flies and how life changes. But I'm content with my simple happy life but sometimes I wouldn't mind just letting loose you know. Maybe I should make that a resolution this year even though I don't believe in resolutions (btw I haven't picked my first book yet so we see how that's going LOL) I should give it a try. We'll see what this year will bring us. Hopefully lol. The weekends are my only sanity and chance to get out and do things, so let's make them funfilled this year.

Tards I Work With

If you know you are coming in for a meeting, why on earth would you wait till the afternoon (not even morning) before to try and make a reservation at one of the nearby hotels? The one we usually use is booked up. I'm not the reservation person ... I hate that they think I am. I hate that I end up making them sometimes. I hate making reservations even for myself. I'd rather do that shit online and be done with it. I'm not a reservation taker. Do I look like I work at a hotel, is it my fault you wait till the last minute to make a reservation. Ugh people annoy me here. So apparently big meeting tomorrow and Wednesday let's see how that works out.

Sleepiness

I've been up since 530ish ... I've been at work since 7ish
It's now noonish and I'm starting to fall asleep
I don't think I really started falling asleep until my alarm went off LOL
Am I the only person like that, doubtful.
Insomnia is not fun especially alone lol.
When everyone around you is snoring ... and you can't fall asleep it just sux major bootay!

Not Technically a Resolution

I want to join a book club, I think I should be reading more books in 2008. It's hard because I rarely have time because if I'm not working I'm at home watching my daughter and if I'm not doing that (usually when she falls asleep) I'm scrapbooking my memories, and if I'm not doing that then I'm catching up on my TV or running errands somewhere. Even the weekends are usually busy with visiting family and what not. But I want to make the time to read a book or two. All I need to do is find a book club that may cater to my taste. LOL. (I like the girly books haha). I used to read a lot, now I just wish I had enough time to sleep really. Yeah it's not a resolution cause I don't really believe in those but it's something I wouldn't mind if it happened but I wouldn't die if it didn't. Any suggestions on book clubs, I'm open....


This morning I had a crazy ass dream. I was at the movies it was a huge theater with tons of chairs but also room in the back to stand or sit, weird I know. Anywho we got out of the movie I set my bag down turn around for a second some bitch stole my purse. I was like hells no! I was chasing her trying to get my purse back it was both comedic and tragic lol. LOL Shakespeare's favorite a tragic comedy lol. Anywho eventually I believe I got my purse back and when my alarm went off I was soooooo tired literally my body didn't want to move. It seems my dream exhausted me completely. But I had to force myself to get up because it was 7:05 and I needed to get out of the house by 7:30. It was quite a trial to get my body going.


quick dream analysis definitions whatever:

~MOVIE THEATER - Dreaming that you are in a movie theater, indicates that you are attempting to protect yourself from your emotions and/or actions. Viewing them on a movie screen projects them onto another person and thus makes those feelings/actions distant . You may be protecting yourself from experiencing them.

~ROBBERY - Dreaming that you have been robbed indicates that you are experiencing an identity crisis or you are suffering some sort of loss in your life. Alternatively, you may feel that someone has stolen your success or has taken credit for something you did.

HMMMM...I wonder what that's all about?

p.s. I hate when people drive while riding their brakes ... I know you know what I mean!

Truly Orgasmic

When you have an itch and finally give it the attention it needs, just close your eyes and feel the pure pleasure of being able to scratch that itch until it itches no longer!

No Such thing as Security

In the job that is. Everyday I come to work and I wonder if today is going to be the day they let everyone go. Not because I do a bad job (because even though I watch TV and chat all day online I still get my work done quickly and efficiently), but because our company seems to be doing not so great. First we get bought out after the many rumors of us closing down. Then today I find out that we lost a major account (I didn't do much work for them but still) now that's not so bad until I find out that another account is also up in the air. A major account that I actually do a shitload of work for. They say there are supposed to hear what is going to happen the end of the second week of January (which is this week). They too were bought out by another company. So my life hangs in the balance and honestly I'm a little scared shitless because I don't want to start over again you know. I've been here five years. That's a long time invested in one place but maybe it is time to move on to better things. We'll see what happens I'm just going to go with the flow and if the time comes I will hope for a good severance LOL.

Bucket List

So I was doing my usual morning blog reads, and after seeing Valley Girl's Bucket List, and the upcoming movie The Bucket list it makes me want to create my own list.

1. Travel the world - Spain, Mexico, France, Germany, Japan, Australia
2. Drive Cross Country
3. GO camping
4. Have another baby
5. Own a home
6. Check out some caves
7. Move to Florida finally
8. Get married (I'm on the fence)
9. Have a job that I love

The list will be to continued ... as I think of things I want to do before I kick the bucket!

It's not even ten yet (am) and I'm already falling asleep at work. I'm a little hungry too but whateverz lol.

So can someone please explain to me why this happens ... You will be tossing and turning all night trying to get to sleep, then you finally reach that point and you're knocked out only to be awake again in a few minutes for no damn reason. Then by the time you finally get comfortable again and drift off to sleep you're alarm wakes you up. This happens to me almost everynight I swear. I go to sleep around 12-130ish wake up around 230ish and finally drift off around 4 or so and have to wake up at 630. Someone do the math I don't feel like it but either way it turns to not a lot of sleep.

I really hate Mondays!

Randomness

Every morning before getting to work I get dressed in the dark. Sometimes I'll try and use my cell phone to see what I'm looking for. I'm in the dark because my child and my boyfriend are both sleeping, and me being the kind person that I am try not to wake them up. Let them have that extra bit of sleep in the morning that I never get. I'll sleep when I'm dead. So I get to work and go throughout the whole day just going about my business and I swear to you I won't look down to even see what I'm wearing sometimes. Sure enough I'll be wearing black pants when I thought I was wearing brown pants, funny I know but it works regardless. So every day I get dressed in the dark and you never know what I'll come out of the house with. Sometimes I wish I had a huge walk in closet that I could just get dressed in there. Maybe I would be a more stylish person who actually matches in some way. Not that I'm that bad at the moment but you know LOL. Eh my randomness for the day, I'll probably post more later because I'm just THAT bored!

Back to the Daily Grind

I'm back from my much needed vacation, but of course with every vacation, you come back and then need a vacation from your vacation. If you know what I mean. While on vacation you want to do as much as possible especially if you're going out of state so you barely get any sleep because you're out the door early and back in the door in the early AM if you had a good time LOL.

Every night was a party night, I think the only time I came home early was on the last Friday cause we were out early in the am on Saturday. It was good to see all the people I grew up with (family) and how different but the same they are now. The best was going out drinking, a girl walking the streets screaming "It's my birthday" and hi-fiving random strangers, finding the perfect bar and having a couple drinks (which were strong as hell), driving back to the hotel but having to stop for a bathroom stop, having your boyfriend throw up next to you into a plastic bag that thankfully I took out the contents of beforehand, then getting back on the highway only to realize you were going the wrong way and then finally getting the much needed grub you were yearning for. Only to have mad drama with the waitress and some dude walks in smoking a cigarette in a clearly non smoking establishment. Fun times!!!! I think we finally rolled into bed around 5ish. Oh I forgot getting to the car after the bar, seeing blood all over the stairs cause some kid got his ass kicked and was bleeding all over the place, of course the cops were there so we had to try and act like we were sober, oh good times!!!

But back to the daily grind, of work, rest, watch the baby, work, rest, watch the baby and so on and so forth bahumbug. I want to go back on vacation permanently with an endless amount of cashflow!